Monday, June 22, 2009
ALERT.
http://nurfa.xanga.com/Just one thing that sucks...I don't know how to insert a tagboard. Dammit. Will take some time to get myself used to xanga.
Okay, enjoy.
Some random thoughts.
I'm thinking of deleting this blog and create a new one. Maybe using xanga, wordpress or livejournal this time. I'm bored of blogspot ):Though blogspot is user friendly... But its like getting too boring already ): I just wanna try something new, and well, different.
Alone.
Sadly, you're too tired to even say " I Miss You So Much, Reena. "
Or maybe you don't miss me at all. Hmm )':
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Happy Fathers day/johor, AGAIN! ):
Happy Fathers Day to ALL Fathers!
Dad, you mean so much to me. You've been extremely patient with me. Everything I want(almost everything), you tried to fulfill it.. Like the camera you got me which cost over (+/-)800 bucks for my birthday... Thanks, dad. Sorry if I've been rude to you lately ): And sorry for misbehaving too. I know I've disappointed you so much.. I love you, Dad. You're the greatest dad, ever!
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Dear Diary!OH HAIDER'S COMING HOME LATER AND I CAN'T WAIT!!!! See how time flies? Just a blink and its already SUNDAY! Really fast, I tell you. but, sadly.... mum last minute told me we're going to Johor later. ): Hope I'll be home before he does.P/S : I can't wait to meet him! :D and hug him and kiss him and tell him that I really really really miss him....................................................................... ):
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Birthday Wishes/something funny.
HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY BIG BRO!
Don't know if you'll read this.... but..neway, sorry didn't get you anything.. Hope you have a bright future ahead! Love ya bro. Sorry if I've been an irritating lil sis to you! hahahahha. _____________________________________
Dear Diary,Something funny tickled me so bad today! haha! and I'm still laughing like a crazy girl!Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
tan zheng sheng! -.- HAHAHA a random ah beng who likes to kpo2 kt rship org
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
not online mine at that time
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
but other ppl also
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
then he like to draw2 namer2 org
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:43 AM):
ONLINE?
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:43 AM):
HAHAHHA
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:43 AM):
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
HAHAHAHAHAHA
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:43 AM):
AHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHA
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
no he's not
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
LOL
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:43 AM):
HAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHHHHHAHAH
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:43 AM):
you mean
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:44 AM):
not only yours
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:44 AM):
right?
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:44 AM):
HAHAHA NOT ONLINE MINE
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:44 AM):
HAHAHHAHAH
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:44 AM):
huh? u know him? hahahahahaha
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:44 AM):
takk, i mean.. dier suker kpo2 rship org
R. lovesex-magix.bs says (2:44 AM):
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:43 AM):
not online mine at that time
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:44 AM):
OH
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:44 AM):
HAHAHAHAH
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:44 AM):
not only mine
Fxza Kxtten™ (@) [http://fxzafxza.blogspot.com] says (2:44 AM):
HAHAHH
P/S: two more days.
Friday, June 19, 2009
I'll be waiting.
Gazing out the window, thinking bout you. Wishing you would think bout me, too. Boy, you changed my life. Silly as it seems, I like how it feels. No matter how hard I tried to move on, it ain't easy. I need you cuz you're the air I breathe. Like a drug, I'm addicted to you.________________________________________
Dear Diary, Haider already went off to Batam. I know its only three days...): I feel lonely now. No text, no call, no webcam, no chat. I hope he already reach there, safely. Today I went out with my parents to have dinner at West Coast Plaza. After dinner, we went to cold storage to get some snacks. Now I'm home, typing this post & thinking bout him. God, miss him already! ): This is just three days... Wonder how I'll cope if he leaves for NS. Then I won't be able to see him more often. ): That upsets me alot. But its okay. Just like this saying :-"Far at sight, Near in heart." Romeo take me somewhere we can be aloneI'll be waiting all there's left to do is runYou'll be the prince and I'll be the princessIt's a love story baby just say yes
Thursday, June 18, 2009
I'm here to say, "I'll miss you so bad!!!"
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): I'm sad. Real sad. But its okay. ): Hope he'll be home, still in one piece. I'll freaking miss him so so so so so so bad. Three days, no texting no calling no chatting no webcamming. ______________________________________________
Dear diary,Today I didn't get to play L4D ): Cuz some people don't wanna go today. Me, Fanah & Haider, playing L4D? 3 people is not enough.. No fun. So I told them we'll play next time.I wanna go play bowling. But I have no money! Someone, please ask me out & treat me. I'll love you for that. Haha! Spent some time with Haider, today. He fussed bout my top, and asked me to wear something decent next time. -.-'Before seperating, we kissed each other goodbye and I gave him a warm hug. I'll only be able to see him on Monday ): I know I've been typing this alot but I'm gonna say it again, I'M GONNA MISS HIM ALOT ALOT ALOT.Okay, I feel like a kid now. :)Kbye. ):
Johor.
Was reluctant to go, at first. But when I think bout the stuff I could get if I follow, I had a change of mind. Hehe!Woke up at 9am. Bathed and got ready. Went out around 10+am. Reached johor an hour later. My family had breakfast while I had a cup of coffee to make myself awake. Then, followed mum and dad to the office to sign some stuff.After that, to Jusco for early lunch and shopping! Bought nothing much. Was thinking of getting a shoe from topshop but the man shoes have no size for me ): Man shoes are better than girl's. So, mum thought it'll be better if I get a bag cuz my bags are all....*don't wanna mention here.* Got myself a bag and 2 tanktops. Spent bout 280RM? yeah. Told mum I wanna get that vans shoes I've been eyeing for but she told me to wait for my birthday. And I have to wait for another 31 more days! Today, I'm going to clementi to meet my fav girl, Farhanah for a game of L4D. I'm super excited cuz finally, I'll get an answer of why L4D is played by many people. Maybe I'll even get addicted, like all of my friends are. Kbye!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Yesterday, today, tomorrow.
MondayWent to Lot 1 with gf. We spent HOURS searching for a top. Haha! yes, hours. Believe it? In the end, we got ourselves only one long sleeve shirt and I bought a pair of slippers too. Oh, free gifts was an accessory. Haha! No one needs to know, right gf? :D After shopping, we hanged out for a while outside. Introduced to her Prata sausage and she introduced me to Honeydew sago. Smoked a stick then left. On our way to mrt station,
A group of guys : Bye!
Me : *nudged gf* maki sikit ah! haha! ( screw them bit ah )
Gf : *points middle finger*
The guy's friends : HAHA!
Reached home and played some stupid games on the net to kill time. TuesdayHaider called at 6+am and asked me out. -.- Supposed to go breakfast & then play L4D but dad didn't give me money. It was the first time going out without money, really.
Met him at around 11+am. Watched him play dota. (Okay, i didn't REALLY watch him). Then spent some time with his niece at his house. The birthday girl. So adorable :DDad fetched us to lavender cuz we need to get our passports. Coincidentally, he needs to take his too. After renewing my passport, mum dad & I left Haider & his mum and went to Arab st for..late lunch. We went window shopping after lunch and I'm really eyeing for the vans shoe! Nvm, birthday coming.Reached home and tried to stay awake but failed! I haven't slept for more than 24 hrs! Gf kept calling me cuz she was downstairs and wanted to borrow my top. Lucky she called mum and mum assist her. I was too sleepy to even open my eyes. ):WednesdayGoing johor later!
Monday, June 15, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Day out with cousin!
Meet up at Far East. Supposed to meet at 3pm but I reached around 3.30pm. Went out of the house around 2. Yes! 1 hour ride!Me : sis, my butt is getting bigger.
cousin : Lol.
Me : I can camp in here. I'm reaching soon! but the bus is as slow as a snail.
cousin : haha! ask the bus to go faster!
    Guess who's older. HAHA!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
BIRTHDAY COMING IN ANOTHER 39 MORE DAYS!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Those memories.
April, 2006I was hanging out at Mac with my friends till I saw you, talking to one of my friends. I walked past you, you smiled at me and asked for my 8-digits. I smiled, blushed and just walked away. Was it a day after or two, you start texting me, telling me you got my number from one of your friends. And then, we planned to meet. You wanted to show me the place where you usually hang out with your friends. We became closer, as time goes by. And on the 27 April, you text and asked me to be yours. And I was on a cloud. I watched you play soccer, watched you have jamming sessions with your friends and spent time with you whenever I could.
I still remember, going to the store at Esso to get a Hot dog roll, kinder bueno & peach tea cuz I was hungry.
We talked on the phone till late and I had to whisper cuz I was scared mum would listen. But she did and I got scolded few times, anyway. Our relationship wasn't smooth sailing, we had our ups and down. But we got over it.August, 2006I started hanging out with my schoolmates and I lied to you. You called home and asked mum if I was there. You found out and was mad at me. We quarreled and you even talked to my friends. And then, we broke up. It was on the 17 August.I met someone new and I got nothing else to say. You advice me not to be with him but I ignored you and was reluctant to leave. In the end, we broke up too. And you asked if we could go back together on your birthday. I agreed soon after but I was just confused. Because I still had feelings for him. I went MIA and then broke up with you again after I got him back. I told you to move on. But karma hit me so fast that I took quite some time to stand up again.In the end, I found out you really moved on and found someone. I was bit jealous. I tried so hard to forget bout you. You hated me so much back then. Every night, I slept, hugging the bear you gave as a gift on my birthday. It was the only thing I'm left with which resembles you. Deep down, I still have feelings for you. I never could forget you. Its that one thing you do which makes a huge impact on my life. You were my first love. The memories are still fresh.
For 4 years, that feeling is still there, deep down. It was never perished. I still love you, Haider. Despite what you did or said to me.
Breaking down.
Today I cried myself to sleep, twice. Or was it thrice? I don't know. But no one cares anyway. I just feel redundant in this world. )':I hate love, I hate everyone )':
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Waiting for miracles. But is there even a miracle?
I never wanted to meet someone so bad. Even though we only spent just few minutes, its okay. I'm not satisfied, but it was better than nothing. I'm tired of fighting, and so I gave in. I walked to the bus stop, all alone. Thinking of you, and sobbing, tearless. My heart's aching so bad. Didn't want to think too much but you insisted on staying on my mind. But I love you still. (f) No one's ever gonna replace you. No matter how good looking they are, there will never be a chemistry. Cuz I've pledged myself to only stay with you, always waiting.. Even if we're not meant to be, I'll still wait. I just can't move on, even if my mind tells me to. But the heart insisted on staying. Reminiscing on the past, looking at myself.. I was so foolish and naive back then. If I ever got a chance, I would go back to when we were together and cherish you. But I know that will never happen cuz time machine doesn't even exist. Dear God, please assist me.
Hollywood Fantasies.
Monday, June 08, 2009
BABY! I AM FREAKING EXCITED. you hear me?
Sorry I just have to post another.42 more days to big day. Chalet on 25 & 26 July! :DOkay I know its still long long way to go but HECK! Who cares! Everyone's invited. Just let me know who's coming. Love you all, muah muah muahxzs.ps : I'm truly excited cuz its gonna be the first time, celebrating my birthday! pps : and i hope it won't turn out like shit. ppps : So i'm gonna plan thoroughly! shut up.kbye.
Everything.
I know you think that I'm not gonna stay, but baby you will see that its ok.You got me, it will be alright. Cuz imma stay by your side. Don't worry if we have you crazy days.And i be stayin mad for a couple day. But no one will ever take your place. See baby i am here to stay.let's forget the past and start over a new begginning. That's all I want.& I want no one else but you cuz you're my everything and will always be. You know I won't leave. Action speaks louder than words. Imma show it to you.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Sorry I ain't perfect.
I know I'm far from perfect, I'm sorry. Sorry I'm not HER. Sorry I'm just Reena. Sorry that I'm not better than HER. Everybody have their own way to show care & concern. Obviously, I'm not HER. If you want me to be like HER, why don't you just wait for HER? Make sense that way.Would appreciate if you appreciate what I did for you. But too bad, you can't even notice what I did. You're just too naive. Love you still, anyway.It's strange to think the songs we used to sing. The smiles, the flowers, everything is gone.Yesterday I found out about you. Even now just looking at you feels wrong. You say that you'd take it all back, give me one chance, It was a moment of weakness and you said, 'Yes'.
You should've said no, you should've gone home. You should've thought twice before you let it all go.
You can see that I've been crying and baby you know all the right things to say but do you honestly except me to believe, we could ever be the same. You say that the past is the past, I need one chance. It was a moment of weakness and you said, 'Yes'
And told me you loved me. Were you just kidding? Cuz it seems to me this thing is breaking down. We almost never speak, I don't feel welcome anymore. Baby what happened? Please tell me cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door and I stare, at the phone. He still, hasn't called and you feel so low you cant feel, nothing at all. And you flashback to when he said Forever and always. Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. Cuz I was there when you said Forever and always. Was I out of line? Did I say something way to honest? Did you run and hide like a scared little boy? I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute. Now I'm not so sure. So, here's to everything coming down to nothing, here's to silence that cuts me to the core, Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymoreK bye. ILH, no matter what. Muah!
Friday, June 05, 2009
Urgh. What a day!
Won't be online that much till my neck gets better. Won't elaborate much either. Just got into an accident two days ago. Everybody's fine. Just slight injuries. Miss my dad's car alot ): I have to wait for few more days to know the result of the x-ray to see if there's any fracture. Hope not. Don't wanna wear braces/casts or anything silly. Okay, till then. Love and miss you all.
PS : get well soon to me & to babyluv. muacks. :D
PPS : I love Haider, only. k. bye.
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Hours of photoshop.
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