DREAM.

To think I know nothing. Till when can I finally take this mask out and stop pretending? Its so hard to blurt it all out knowing what the outcome would be. Wouldn't want to lose either. This is killing me. I have to fall so hard to lose it all. Yet you're just enjoying watching all the pain & torture I had to go through. Suffering alone. You were not there to tell me that everything is alright. You did not console me. The pain I had to endure. The suffocation due to the mask I put on. How many hearts I broke just to stick with you. I can't imagine it. Its haunting me.

Still, I don't regret. What for regretting. Regretting can't bring the old you back.I would pay just any price to have the old you again. But I doubt its priceless. Even if I write you a thousand words essay, confessing my feelings, even if I ran away from home just to stay with you, even if I die, you wouldn't change. I know.

My heart literally broke into pieces. I could feel the ache as it shredded to million million pieces.

I'm picking up all the pieces slowly, patching everything up with scotch tape while looking at you enjoying it. You told me not to hurt you in the future. But I should be the one saying that to you. You know what you've been doing and I know it, too. Don't ask, cuz I won't say it out no matter whats the price is.