Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Feeling elated!
You're all I want, You're all I need.Its okay if we're not officially together. The status doesn't matter much to me. What matters most is you by my side always. I'll stick with you. Just so you know, I'm doing my best to win your heart back, like how I did, 4 years back. I'm sublime now. All I want is you to love me. ___________________________________Dear Diary,
English Mid year was today. I screwed my letter writting. I wrote a report instead of formal. It was a silly mistake. And I'm not satisfied with my composition. I could have written more. ): But paper 2 was easier than I thought.
After exam, met Haider and went to 365 to slack, as usual. We played cards and he won. 5-1. ):
I'm going to KL tomorrow till Sunday. I don't wish to go cuz I won't be able to meet Haider for four days ): And I wont be able to know how he is, what he's doing and all. Life is so unfair!
Little things that makes me smile from ear to ear.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Happy Happy Day.
Happy Birthday Haider's Mum.
Today is great! :DAbsent myself from school today. Woke up around 10am. Played pet society for few hours. Then got myself ready and went out. Dad sent me to West Coast Court. Met Farhanah. Went to 365 for a while. Then to Haider's house to give him the brownies which me and mum baked for his mum's birthday. Waited outside while he bathe and get ready. Then went to the market to have lunch. Meet his mum and his niece. After eating, went to his house to cut the cake. After that, walked around clementi central to find a tongue stud. But none of the shop offers it. So, head to 365 to hang around. Suddenly, he feels like having a haircut. Which was really random. After haircut, we went to his brother's house to send his niece. And I swear his youngest niece is so cute! Ahak Ahak Ahak! (you know I know) :DOkay, I wanna play pet society again.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Hurt. Childish. Immature.
Can I just take a piquant knife and stab her and take an air rifle, aim at her head and shoot till her fucked up brains oozes out?I HATE YOU! urgh god damn it. I hate it when we always quarrel bout you. Cuz you won't stop bothering him. Go find another boy who's single and not dating lah! Scumbag. Pussy. Whatever. So what if I don't know you at all? Through my judgement, you're one hell of a thieve! I swear one day you slip, fall, twist your ankle and hand. So bad that you can't do anything to change that. Unless you opt to amputate them cuz you're too embarrassed to show it to the public. Sheesh. Sorry if I was being immature & filthy-mouth for a minute. Wasn't my fault. My anger is way up the limit now and I cant do anything to let it go. And that irritates me so much! I need a punching bag for my birthday which comes in around 3 more months. If you're kind enough, maybe you can get me an advance gift. I swear I'll love you alot. But not as much as him, sorry. Being angry just makes me feel sleepy. I hate today. )': I hate it so much. Today is the most fucked up day ever, EVER! I swear I'm suffering every minute of it. If only time would tick alot faster.Must I wait for another 365 days? I hate it how I can't hate you but love you more instead )':You're mean. You don't care. No you don't.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Thoughts.
Would you cry, if you saw me crying? And would you save my soul, tonight?Would you tremble, if I touched your lips? Now would you die, for the one you loved? Hold me in your arms, tonight. I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away. Would you swear, that you'll always be with me? Or would you lie? would you run and hide? Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
Say goodbye to the way I was before. Say hello to a new me. I was lost, but I found what I was looking for. Waking up to a new day.
Wordy.
Falling, I'm falling deeper. Deeper, deeper in love with you.
Words are just words. They say, talk is cheap. And that action speaks louder than words. Its ridiculous to make many promises without fulfilling it. When you break the promise, don't you feel embarrassed and wished you never made any of them or wished that you could fulfill it? Yeah I know how it feels. I bet everyone does. For sure everyone had broken at least one or two promises. So why make promises if you're not sure you could fulfill it?
Nobody in this world is perfect. Like what this advertisement says, "imperfection is what makes someone perfect" Or something close to that. Sorry if I got it wrong. Everyone, almost everyone, comes from a tainted past. _______________________________________
Dear Diary,Absent myself from school yet again. Sorry Husband & Val. Didn't mean to.. I couldn't force myself to wake up. Devils in my head just keep whispering to go back to sleep. So woke up around 10, received a msg from girlfriend asking if I went to school. The plan was to meet at 1.30pm at West Coast Court to pay the Nlevel fees in school. She's late, as usual. Lucky I met Farhanah & Nasri there. And Haider called too. We went to 365 and slacked a while after I met Haider. (not going to be too detailed) After that, went to school and returned there. Slacked till around 7.30pm. Went home while Haider went to play takraw. Oh, I feel brave. I walked alone in the dim-litted alley. It was kinda eerie though. But before I entered, many things raced through my mind. Things like "what if there's someone waiting at the end? What if I got kidnapped?" and all sorts of thing. But no, nothing happened and I'm glad. Maybe its because I wore the tshirt which says "little miss lucky". Maybe that shirt was my lucky charm after all. Just maybe. But I don't wish to walk there alone after 7 again.
PS:
 My boyfriend. I know, he's so hot. :D He's mine.And no, I'm not telling you who is he. BLUEK!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Birthday Wishes, update.
(24 April 2009)
happy 18th birthday Zulfiqar!
It was really nice knowing you, seriously. :) Hope to know you better ^^
Better future ahead aite. Good luck in everything you do. And hope you're able to pursue your goals.
Happy 21th birthday, Hamdan! haha. don't know why I prefer Hamdan than Danny.
Sorry didn't get you anything this year. I'm a lil upset you lost the watch I gave but thats okay. Better future ahead alright. Sorry on behalf of my family. Whats past is past. Take care!_______________________________________
Dear diary, Today school wasn't that bad. Time flew by faster than I thought. I'm proud to say that I didn't spend more than 2 dollars today. HAHA. For the first time of the year! I'm on a special diet. I don't even know why I'm going on diet. Seriously.After school, slacked a bit with girlfriend, bro, Nasri & Yan. After that to 365 to meet Haider. He tricked me with his so called magic. -.- He took my phone and put it on the chair between us. He fanned out a deck of cards on top of my phone and then asked me to pick a card. And he'll guess it. Yeah he did guessed it right. But I caught him red handed looking at my phone for reflection of the card. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow. I'm going to school tomorrow.YES I AM GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW! :D
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
When it all comes down.
Why am I hurt? Why am I thinking too much? Why do I get jealous so easily? Why am I so sublime but dejected when I see your face? I reminisce the past all so sudden. I miss it. Everytime I'm by your side, my heart would race so fast, just like the old times. I miss kinder Bueno, I miss Delifrance chicken pie/sausage roll, I miss peach tea, I miss watching you jam, I miss watching you play soccer. I miss everything that happened 3 years ago(going to be 4 in 6 days). But you're different now. Not the one whom I used to know at that point of time. Its like I don't know who you are now. But, I've got all the time to know you again, better, now. Nothing to rush. I'll win your heart, I'll do my best. I'm the one who wants to be with you._________________________________Dear diary,
I feel rather happy but sad today. I need a breather. I need to be alone for awhile. But the thing I most yearn for at this moment is just a massive hug. I need to change myself. I need to be better. I need help ): I need to learn how to control my jealousy.
Monday, April 20, 2009
One Wish.
If I have one wish, I'd wish to have a guy who will care for me, listens to me, stick with me, be a friend, be there for me, cherish me, understands me, cheers me up when I'm sad, laugh with me, share happiness together, and most important, love me for who I am. Just a wish which may or may not come true. Am I asking just too much? Will you grant that wish?____________________________________
Dear Diary,Haider is so happy just now because he just found out that he had this software called Photoscape. And he says that he wants to edit his pictures. So he asked me to snap few pictures which in the end got deleted because I don't look good in it. He was being utterly mean just now because he made fun of me. He tried to imitate my laughter. I was so furious that I almost killed him. But no, I didn't. Cuz he's just too cute. HAHA WHAT THE HELL?So school was....fast. Most probably cuz I wasn't paying much attention on the time. Had a long talk with gf bout many stuff. Boys, boys, boys, school.PS : I'm upset now ): I need a big warm hug.
I still could recall exactly what you said. "the only time you find the right one is when you start thinking bout yourself". I guess its time I take a break, and think bout myself. Cuz I've been thinking bout other people's feelings lately instead of mine. Oh why. ): I hope this decision is right this time. Cuz I'm looking for happiness & true love, not sadness. Please stay. Don't fool me again.
True friends would want to see a smile on his/her face, sincerely. Hypocrites are people who pretends doing good infront him/her and the other way round on his/her back.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
34519834751903 pictures. celebration. love.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Misses.
Yesterday was great. The casts are very cute. Oh and there's this part when the cast was lingering around the theater. Me & gf wanna go back to our seats but the cat was blocking our way. Guess what? Gf screamed so loud that everyone was looking at us. HAHA.After Cats Musical, I went straight home.I hate sore eyes ): urgh.I hope tomorrow's plan turns out well. Oh no, I still haven't get anything for my girl's birthday tomorrow ): if only i have a billion or two. DAMN WOULDN'T IT BE GREAT? D: I spent 1 hr on make-up, another 1 on hair. ......... I can't believe this is me. HAHA. i look so..decent ? My dearest girl. 4 years, still counting. :) Dearests. I love you all.
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This is specially for my dearest and most beloved one and only girlfriend.(updated on 11:48pm)
 Happy sweet sixteen baby. Tomorrow will be your day. I hope things will turn out well. You're going to be sixteen in few minutes time. I know things for you haven't been smooth sailing. But you know your friends will always be there for you, including me. Whenever, wherever. Life isn't perfect, keep that in mind. But I hope one day, everything would calm down and go back to normal, for you. Girl, we've been friends for almost 4 years. Through ups and downs with you. This year MIGHT be the last year for us(HOPE NOT!). If it is, I really hope our friendship would last. :) I never regret knowing you. Damn I still remember those times when we were in sec one. Till now! Haha! reminiscing on those memories really make me laugh. Anyway, put that aside. I want you to be happy always. If you're sad, I'll lend you a shoulder and a listening ear. I hope he would take care of you. I hope he's way better than him. & last but not least, I hope your future would be better. Happy birthday!MUAH! With love,
your girlfriend.
Monday, April 13, 2009
life updates. Pictures.
 Life's like a game. Agree?  Shaboy!     
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Forgetting all the hurt you learn to hide so well.
I've never been perfect. So have you.
Sorry for the irregular updates. Been busy with school. And hooked playing pet society on facebook. Haha. Yeah, that's about it. Oh, and I've no mood lately.
I've got so much to update about and few pictures to load but maybe some other time. *shows innocent face* Next time alright.
So how's my love life been? Hah! I'm still single alright :D No, not planning to have any sooner. Cuz I've been falling into some traps laid by few jerks.
I hate liars, don't you? Well if you do, why'd you have to lie?
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