I've been asking myself, every now and then.
A question I'd like to ask, but dare not.
What makes her so much better than me?
Well, it pains me to think bout it. No one in this world is perfect. Why? I ask myself. But I'm not even a step near to get the answer. I'm in a process of changing myself, to start a new chapter, though some things can't be amend. Sometimes, it got me thinking. Can I even be better than her? What are the defects in me? How am I supposed to be better than her if you can't guide me and tell me whats wrong and whats right? I'm starting from a scratch, just so you know.
No, words can't bring me down. But why is it I feel ashamed of myself? I felt like a fool. Or maybe I am? Am I even in a wrong? Did you guys broke up cuz of me?
I need assurance. Right now, I don't even have confidence in me anymore. But still, I'd like to change, for the better. For the sake of you, me, parents. So even if you take your leave, I won't regret. Cuz in the end, I've learnt alot. BUT you leaving me, thats what i NOT hope for. I'm just stating the fact. No point hiding.
I've learnt the hard way, to not let it go too far. I don't wanna repeat the same mistake. I know my flaws, of making the wrong decision. But lets hope I've made the right choice, for now.
It takes a pair of wings to fly. With only a wing, how can it possibly fly?
So, both have to participate. If only one is doing everything, nothing, nothing can work out. NOTHING can be achieved.
Life goes on, anyway.
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So, today after school, was parents meeting session. Dad came around 5pm. Almost all subject teacher mentioned the same thing - bad attendance. My results for CA1 wasn't that bad. 2 Us - combined science & humans. The four subjects I'm weak in. The rest are improving. But this is all class tests only. I have to stive hard and do my parents proud. Thats a goal, I'm hoping to achieve.
