Monday, January 05, 2009
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Ciaos!Qué pena. ¡Usted es tal hipócrita! School have been draggy for me but I have to throw away my unwanted attitude now. N levels will be in few months time and its time for me to really buck up! I can't afford to slack anymore. I'm thinking of working till June, then pause and continue again on either October or November. I miss Zakee so much. But I guess I was forgotten. I thought things have gotten better but no. No text or call from him few days back. I guess its a goodbye then. Words are cheap, ey?Almost everything have turned rotten & sour. I'm sick of this feelings. I have no one, no one to share my rants/sorrow/stories/happiness with now. It used to be my bestest best friend or best known as darling but well, we've grew apart now. I miss her. And no more gf to cheer me up when I'm down. No more, no more. I miss both of them. People come and go, like said.I need a hug. I need a shoulder. I need a pair of listening ears. But no one had offered me.Whats worst when someone eventually told a different story and trying to make other people hate me for my wrong doings which never exists at all. I guess I was too generous and kind ey? I let people step on my head. And I do forgive people easily. Cuz I believe that everyone makes mistakes and no one is perfect. But I guess I was stupid and too soft hearted. I can't hold it any longer. Heart gonna break any sooner. But I will stay strong and put a big smile, pretending everything's fine. But can I possibly do IT? )':
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