Friday, November 28, 2008
Loving it!
I'm slowly moving on...Putting much effort.
I went out the whole week today. So busy with work & other stuffs. Going to Pasir Ris later for the Melayu Sg event. Can't wait! But I feel lazy tho. ):
Just another week & I'll be a lil happy girl! I can't wait to get my pay! The first thing i gonna do is to treat my family to pizza hut.. then go shopping with my bestfriend. After shopping, go out with friends! Boy, can't wait!
Time really ticks faster than I thought. I was surprised to find out that I've already been working for 3 weeks. I miss school, I miss the ol' crowds, I miss everyone.. But its all gone, anyway. ): I miss them. But, its okay. I have new friends now. But even if I do, they can never replace them.
People really do come & go, ey? Its okay. Can't be forced neway :)
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Over.
No more late night calls. No more baby. No one to disagree with. No one to quarrel then kiss & make up. No more hugs & kisses before work. No shoulder to lean on. No more Fajar rd. No more going out early in the morning eventhough work starts at 6 anymore. No more msges saying "b, i reached home already" "b, i finished work already" anymore. I'll miss everything but life just have to move on now. Memories will stay as memories. But now, we're back to being strangers again.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Its you & me against the world, now.
Apologies for being MIA. Was facing so much things at once & pretty much occupied with work. I told myself that I need a timeout. But I just don't know when. Everything ain't giving me any break. It just keeps on coming. Or maybe I was just too slow to catch up?
I miss all my used to be best friends. Those people whom I used to love & show concern bout. But none of that matters me now. Cuz I'm limit to few best friends only, now. I miss the past though. Can't help it. We used to be so close! So much of 3 years friendship & promise. I guess there's no such thing as forever..just like what my used to be gf said. Its true after all.
Moving on! things haven't been good lately. Not only relationship but work & family too. There's more actually. But wouldn't reveal it here.
Anyway, went out to West Coast Plaza last Thursday with my all time favorite friend cum sis cum joker. She brighten up my day with her jokes, as always. We went to Subway to have our lunch first then to Starbucks and order my usual(Grande Java Chip). It was the first time ordering on my own at Subway, actually. Was so stiff. The whole time there, all I could think of was her. The person who first introduce me to Sub. But anyway... everything there was superb! Especially the cookies!! :DFanah : Reena, you never eat at home huh???
me : sometimes...why?
Fanah : Oh, so that explains it.
me : HUH?
Fanah : You're getting thinner!
me : -.- no! im getting fatter!
 Fanah & I.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Another Boring Life Update.
First and foremost, did you guys read the papers? Whoa, that's just the most horrifying way to die. Hope they wont eliminate the tigers. They're not in a wrong anyway. Its natural for them, right? I mean, they are wild after all. What do you expect?? Tsk. Moving on... Life's such a bore. ): I need money badly. And working at Pizzahut is not even worth it. I've calculated and I know I wont even hit 300 bucks. I'm in search of another temporary job. Friendster have been hitting on my nerves since last night! urgh. Forget bout that.. I joined Malayu-sg.com .. Actually, my intension of signing up is cuz I wanna join the BBQ MJ12. I wanna watch Quarantine! ): Anyone?PS : I'll not be updating that much now. Cuz I'll be busy with work.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Do you remember the first day we met?
30 September 2007, baby. The moment I saw you, my heart skips a beat & I got butterflies in the stomach. Damn, I still could remember the feeling. You were late. But that's okay. Then, we headed to Bt Panjang Plaza. You, me, Dhit & Shafiq. After hanging out, we walked to pending, together. You & Shafiq had to go to work. & that was the first time you kissed my cheeks. I blushed, badly. Then, you text me & asked if we could be together. It made me smile from ears to ears. I was on cloud nine.
Sunday, November 09, 2008
I can't picture my life without you
Not talking to you, is already hard. What more, if you were to leave me all alone. Cuz you been by my side for all way through. Tricky to find somebody almost like you. Thank you, love. Every fights will make our love grow stronger right? But I don't wanna quarrel with you anymore. ): Cuz I'm afraid to lose you. I love you so much, you know that? Today work was fine. Lucky nothing happened. Finished just on time. Not everything was fine though. But only minor incidents. Nothing major. *phew.. Monday-Wednesday, I'll be working from 6-10.. Not sure if I'm able to cope with it. But its fine so far.. As time goes by, everything will be at the tips of my finger! *ehem*I miss my sweet lover boy. Please god! Let me meet him tomorrow. For few minutes also can.. As long as I can see his face, then that should be okay. Cuz I'm love sick! ):
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Broke down, again.
Tell me, do you think I deserve this?
Tell me, what wrong did I do?
Tell me, haven't I been treating you good?
Tell me, haven't I sacrifice so much?
Tell me, do you love me?Those words you told me when you want me back in your life, are still fresh on my mind.You said, "You will not let me down."But i guess, those were just words. Do you even know how much I love you? You say, that when I say "I love you", Its all bullshits. But all the things I did & sacrificed, do you even see or know? Haven't I do alot to prove to you?
FUCK LIFE!
I'm on the verge of suicide. Its all I could ever think of now. )':Why? why? I see the past is repeating again. )':Every time I think about you, You just drive me crazy. I can't get you off of my mind. Every time I think about what you done for me baby. I miss you with every sec that goes by. Now that you're gone, I can see that I was wrong. So, What would it take to get my baby back into my arms? What would it take to have you here again right by my side? Cuz I'm missing you. I'm missing your smile, your touch, you're everything that drives me wild. Nobody can make me feel the way you do. Without you I'm lost. You're always in my thoughts. I know I made some mistakes in this relationship. I wanna make this thing right, don't wanna fuss and fight. Don't argue in the night. There is no way in this world I can repay you for the pain I brought. I wanna change this now and bring you back in my arms.
You've been saying this ain't working out. You need to think about if we should stay together, plus the stormy weather. You think that I'm cheating, creeping, sneaking behind your back but that ain't true cuz I love you. You should know that I adore you and I ain't going nowhere, boy I'm staying right here. I know you think that I'm not gonna stay but baby you will see that it's okay. You got me, it will be alright, Cuz Imma stay by your side. Don't worry if we have our crazy days and I'll be staying mad for a couple days But no one will ever take your place, See baby I am here to stay.
Lately, ain't got a clue what I goin through every time you walk away. I guess it's my fault but no matter what you do I let you come back anyway. I blame it all on fantasy, mistaken lies for chemistry. Ain't gotta choice but to let you walk Cuz nothing was what I thought. I thought that we was in love and you were the one and you'd have my back down for anything. Stick with me through the joy and the pain. How could you turn your back on us? I was so madly in love, I know it got rough. Never questioned what was left for us to save. None left in my heart for you to break. How could you turn your back on love?
Have you ever had a problem you had to keep to yourself and
Your trying but it hurts like hell
It's a feeling I despise, bringing misery to life
Wishing you had someone to trust in
So you can let it all out convey the reason you been feeling so down
But when you reach out for help you find there's no one but yourself
I know...
)':
Will you bother then, if I die tonight? I don't think so. )':I needed you. but i can't feel you. cuz you're nowhere near. I'm already down. And I was on the verge. You pushed me. I can't take it anymore. )': One last question, do you really love me?
Friday, November 07, 2008
Bad Day.
Why the hell must I get jealous easily? Fuck it! ): I hate this feeling. But what can I do? N-o-t-h-i-n-g. Shit ass ah! ): & why am I not allowed???? But why are you allowed??? Why the FUCK didn't I stop you??? oh. cuz.. I DON'T KNOW )': FUCK YOU AH EH! reena, you suck ahhh. reena, you're so soft. reena, you scared? SHUT UP AH! I hate those voices in my head. cuz they just suck. )':
Everything was fine this morning till afternoon. Met bf cuz he's sick. But he's alright. After that, went to work around 6pm. At first, there were no one.. But as soon as it reaches 7pm, it became busy. SO MANY CUSTOMERS I TELL YOU. ):Everything was smooth in the first place... Then, it got cocked up. Many things were not done.. Customers got angry. I couldn't handle it. I trembled, when talking to the customers. At first, everything was on my mind. The minute I face the customer, it all vanished. I mumbled and can't even bring my words properly. This feeling, is called nervous. I even forgot to key in my friend's order! woah. I swear it was the most embarrassing moment. Manager was mad at me.. Had to apologize alot. I'm new anyway! what do you expect?? hmph.Then, at 10, all of us haven't finished cleaning yet. We had to do closing. Bf called, mum called, dad called..... damn, I swear I can't control my temper anymore. THANKS AH! thanks for adding salt & lemon to the wound eh. Appreciate it MUCH MUCH! SCREW EVERYTHING! _!_ To SOMEONE, can't take it anymore? wanna send me to girls home? SEND AH! I'd be more than happy. :) I can pack up all my things and fuck off. I don't mind.
Now I have no pillows to rest my head on later, cuz its wet. Thanks to everyone. )': I can't take it anymore! I can't help but just to break down and flood my whole room )':
PS : I need a hug and a shoulder, badly )': You don't even care do you?? You can't even trust me! Thank you so much.
Boring Update.
Stayed at home today. Did nothing much but just rot infront of the screen, watching movies and stuffing myself with food. Healthy food, at that. Told ya I was on healthy diet! I've been craving for the song, Albert Jensen-Talking To Myself. Searched everywhere, high & low, but can't seem to find it anywhere. Hmm. I tried converting the video from youtube, using Vixi, but I failed. ): Moving on, wanna know what I've been stuffing myself with? NESTLE NESTUM! haha. I feel like a kid again. Bf's sick ): I'm worried. How?
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
My Heart says :
Express the fact to hide desire in heart,
Suppose the meaning of exposure is hidden.
Staring of eyes isn't a normal opinion.
Years suppose to establish a relationship till today,
friendly jokes fills the time together,
The feelings grows more.
Today I realised,
you are the one whom I love.
If that's not the truth,
Then why do i feel something is missing?
Maybe I don't understand anything..
I can't deny any longer.
The burden of keeping a secret is burning me.
Pondering alone kills a hundred hope.
Not able to forget even if it disappear.
Cuz I have a strong desire for you.
I'm willing to pass the everlasting happiness,
if maybe I'm not capable of it.
With the ability of my heart, I'll still love you.
Sorrows will not be bothered.
If life is caught up, and my heartbeat is still going on,
I'll prove to you the genuine love,
Never will I regret.
Cuz your life is much meaningful.
Not easy for you to understand.
Don't wish to get hurt.
This weakness becomes an obstacle.
Leave me be; let me love you.
Love you no matter how far.
Love Is In The Air.
Sorry if I've been talking bout love recently. Just can't help it. I feel so.. elated talking bout it. And I just feel like talking bout it everyday, every minute & every second of my life. Cuz love is just so Beautiful. Okay, so maybe I should make an update of what have been happening recently. There's nothing so exciting to talk about actually. I'll start work this coming Thursday. Weird, cuz I'm looking forward to it. Ha ha. Its my first time after all. Well, not really the first cuz I've worked with sis before(2 years back, selling tickets at SunTec City). I'm a lil nervous bout it. But shall not worry, cuz everything's gonna be fine. I mean, talking to customers, taking orders, serving and etc, Is not a big deal. :D (woah! So confident! Ha ha). Okay, kidding.. I was just trynna calm myself down... But seriously, it ain't a big deal right? Okay, this might be random. But it just came up on my mind. So, I guess it'll be a topic for today's post.If I have 13 million USD...(why 13? cuz its my favourite number.)The first thing I'd do is give my parents half of it. Then, I'm left with 6.5 million. I'll give 1.5 million to boyfriend. I'll give 2 million to the charity. And whats left, will be 3 million. I'll save 1 million for my kids(in future). and the 2 million, I'll pamper myself, ofcourse! Okay, maybe I can only dream on bout having millions of dollar. I can't even save my own pocket money! ha ha. SO ANYWAY, moving on... I'm starting on a healthy diet now. Ha ha. SERIOUS! I ate vegetables everyday. Fruits, too. I've made a deal with myself to only eat junk food ONCE per weak. And if I really have to, maybe twice. I don't know if I can maintain this if I start working at Pizza Hut. Ha ha. You should know why.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Tell me how you gonna be without me?
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe.
The love is getting stronger as days passes by. I'm starting to fall deeper & deeper. This feeling, is ever so surreal. His company was always awe-inspiring. He's always on my mind. & I can't seem to get him out. Everyday, I looked forward on meeting him. Sometimes, I don't even feel like going home when I'm with him.He's like a magnet; I'm attracted to him. I'd feel jubilant every time I see him. This feelings, are like fireworks. So surprising, so beautiful, so.... indescribable!
A Date.
 Today, got to spent some quality time with bf. Went to Pizza hut to submit my vaccination form and etc. Signed contract and stuff. After that, met bf at Jelapang st. It was raining heavily. Went to Lot 1 and bought a pair of tickets to HSM3. After that, we had lunch then we went up to watch the movie. I swear HSM3 wasn't bad at all. The choreographs were awesome. The storyline was great! I swear, Troy is so hot! Ryan too! After movies, went down to Fajar to hang out for awhile. Reached home before 10pm. You know, maybe we should do this more often :D ha ha. I wanna go picnic one day! Maybe catch the sunset.. we'll have loads of fun!
Sunday, November 02, 2008
My Superhero.
I never thought anyone could make me feel this way. I never thought I'll love someone this much. I never thought someone would have a great effect of my life. I never thought someone is able to change me from worst to bad, bad to good. I never thought someone would care this much. I never thought I'd be pampered so much. I never thought I'd be so committed. This, I could go on and on.What's this tingling feeling I'm feeling? What's this emotion called? Is this Love? If this is love, why haven't i felt this way before in the past? Probably the past was just an open relationship. & this is more serious than the previous ones. Well, I may not be able to predict the future but I hope, through ups and down, this relationship would last.
It's unbelieveable to see how love could set me free
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