DREAM.

Sitting alone at home, reminiscing the sweet memoirs which can never be forgotten is what I always do when I feel empty. Oh how much I miss the past. This Christmas, I wish for a Time Machine. So I can travel back in time or fast forward to see how the future looks like. I know it sounds stupid but its my dreams. But wouldn't you think the same, too? Ask your heart and answer. I bet so. Unless you don't even have any good memoirs then that's another story. But I bet the future won't be that bad? Oh well.

Moving on, things have been crazy for me. Not really crazy but almost everything's in haywire. & I'm doing my best to entangle it. I swear, it takes alot of effort. Figuratively, not literally. This time, I believe I can do it. But, I'll need some support. & when I say support, I don't mean PUSHING ME DOWN but helping me up. Get what I mean? Its like swimming.. If you're a lifeguard, you wouldn't push the unconscious person down & add on pressure to him/her but tell him/her not to struggle & remain calm, then bring him/her up to the shore. Am I right? If you're doing the otherwise, then I don't know why they call you a life saver. They should have mistaken you as a life killer. Haha! kay, jokes aside now.

Well well..... What I'm thinking of is how ended up in a relationship with a mind of a two year old and big caps "LOSER", marked on his forehead. Not my bf, but my ex boyfriend/lover. I must've been blind. So what if you hate my bf? It won't put me down or stop me from loving him. You're jealous I assume? HAHA. You've got what you want, but I don't give a damn. You're missing alot, dude. May you suffer in future or best still, NOW. Rot in hell. You're so unwanted in this world. Okay, I know I'm mean & I'm not suppose to say this. But well, fact is fact. Hehe. You suck, arse hole. Such a pain in the arse. I regret everything, with you. But what to do. It was fate. I can't stop that. But lucky, we're not together now. Or else, I'll be the one suffering like hell. Like, wth? No way! I've moved on & I'm bloody happy.(though I've been down at times. But at least I don't have to suffer anymore. Bleah!) & I'm glad my WHOLE family hates you.

Was blog hopping yesterday cuz I was bored and I happened to chance on this blog. Believe it or not, I spent the whole day reading her posts. Not because I have nothing to do or have no life but I find it interesting. It just caught my attention. Her exboyfriend is just as sweet & romantic. I swear. He left notes all around her house most of the times, even in her socks drawer. Aww.. How i wish to have a bf like that... BUT, well, different guys show their sweetness in different ways. :) The most sweetest thing a guy ever done for me was.. hmm.. *thinking hard*.. making straw hearts for me for no special event. Haha! I call that sweet. & that was 2 years ago.. He's the first boyfriend I had in secondary school. & Its the first thing I ever received from a guy. I don't know why I'm sharing this, but the most sweetest thing that I hope a guy will do is to bring me out for a dinner, then drive me to a park, stargaze, look me in the eyes & tell me how much I mean to him, what his life would be without me, he wanna spend his life with me and ofcourse, mean everything he said & not sweet talk. Awww. I bet I'll be speechless & weep for joy. I bet all girls (well at least most) would love to experience this. Who wouldn't??

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An inquisitive mind; But ignorance is bliss. Would you rather know the truth which will hurt you or avoid knowing it? Cuz curiuosity kills the cat. Whats your opinion?
Well for me, Sometimes I rather know the truth even if I'll get hurt in the end. But on the other hand, I don't have a clue if I'm strong enough to stand the pain and move on.