I've bid goodbye.
I know we'll be moving on with life, soon.
But the sweet memories will stay.
You have a part in my heart, still.
That won't change, its a promise.
We'll still be friends, don't worry.
Till I feel really committed and found the right one, then I'll have a bf.
For now, I'll take this opportunity to take a break & chill.
And maybe do some catch up too.
Since I've been missing alot.

& I guess, after being through so much, I'm much stronger now. Something or someone had cushioned my fall. But I can't figure out who or what. Yes, I'm right at the bottom now. Maybe I'll try to climb up the wall/mountain when I feel much tougher. I can't predict when. Maybe tomorrow, soon or for years or months. I already have bruises now. And I'll have to recover too, ofcourse. All this years, I never got myself near to the peak. I don't have any idea what its like. Maybe its easier or maybe its tougher. I don't know? But, I guess it depends on which way I choose at the bottom.

Here, a song for my ex lover, Adham..


Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.