DREAM.

So, I guess thats the reason why I've been acting this way to guys. Honestly, the feeling of revenge is there. But now, I realize, None is the same. The guilt is building up, yet again. Blame the guys who hurt me, in the past. Forgive, but not forget. How can I ever forget? The misery, torture...and the list goes on. My heart's still shattered. Putting it back together, slowly. Like they say, it takes time to heal. Now, I regretted treating him badly. And I keep on thinking that what he gave was never enough, but reminiscing on the past, it was me, who never gave enough. I was spoilt, you see. And that, I regret. So, now, I'm gonna change. I'm really sorry for pushing away, in the past. Throwing tantrum at you and all. I keep on wondering why the hell you want me back in your life, after all I've done, last year. I don't know what you did, but I love you more, with each passing day, now. I can't promise forever. I can't predict the future, and besides, you know, I can't live forever. But all I can promise is to treat you better. I can't say much, cuz we're still young. Theres more to go through in life. No one, wants to get too tied down in a relationship unless they're married to each other. & I don't want to be too controlling, too cuz I'm sure you want freedom, like me. I love you, Adham.

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Sis, this is for you. You know who you are. I apologize for saying that to you. But, honestly, I think you changed. Don't you realize, we're drifting away? We didn't talk like how we used to. Okay, maybe chat. You're like, always busy with your stuffs now. Both of us are. But I don't want you to get to stressed up. & that's why I'm keeping it to myself. But I guess, keeping it to myself just makes it worst. You're already occupied with problems, which is building up. And I made it worst, by adding it. What the hell was I thinking? This is just not me. I supposed to give you my listening ear & shoulder to cry on. & cheer you up,too. ): I hate myself. I'm selfish. I never thought of your feelings. Oh god! D': I love you )':