Sunday, August 24, 2008
Away
Will be away for 4 days. So, do miss me! :D& no matter how far we are, we'll be near at heart, baby. I love you so much.I'm already missing you anyway. ):
Saturday, August 23, 2008
shopping. $$$$$$$$$
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
mUnDaNe.
Nothing much happened today. Farhanah, Mirul & BF came to my house. Cuz I miss them ^^ 4 days, 4 DAYS D:Farhanah went home first cuz no one's at home to take care of her lil sis. So, Mirul & BF stayed for a while and watch movie. I fried nuggets cuz I'm hungry. But bf commented and said it was uncooked. Damn it. D: Mum woke up and didn't say anything. It was the first time inviting guys home, actually. So, I don't know what she might ask. So now I'm sitting in my room, dying of boredom.OBS NEXT WEEK. urgh. Please. I need to get well soon ):
PS : Sorry if the post is getting more & more dry. But thats the way it is. BEAR IT!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Down.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place
Saturday, August 16, 2008
sick.
  Down with fever, headache, sore throat & flu.What a tough luck I'm having. I can't go out today. Cuz I feel restless. Damn it. I hate sore throat. Not being able to eat & swallow saliva. ):Please, I want to get well soon ): I need Bf to be by my side, now. urgh. I miss him I miss him I miss him. If only we're neighbours. Then, we can meet everyday. Fuck probation. Damn it. I WANT TO GET WELL SOON SO I CAN MEET BF ON MONDAY! ):Kay, enough whining. Teachers Day coming. I want to meet my Pri School Teachers but I don't know how? Cuz Jin Tai Pri have merged with other school, already ): Currently chatting & waiting for mum & dad to come home with my honey lemon drink D:FASTER PLEASE! I'm dying.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
The misery I've gone through, hurts more than it looks like. (w)
So, I guess thats the reason why I've been acting this way to guys. Honestly, the feeling of revenge is there. But now, I realize, None is the same. The guilt is building up, yet again. Blame the guys who hurt me, in the past. Forgive, but not forget. How can I ever forget? The misery, torture...and the list goes on. My heart's still shattered. Putting it back together, slowly. Like they say, it takes time to heal. Now, I regretted treating him badly. And I keep on thinking that what he gave was never enough, but reminiscing on the past, it was me, who never gave enough. I was spoilt, you see. And that, I regret. So, now, I'm gonna change. I'm really sorry for pushing away, in the past. Throwing tantrum at you and all. I keep on wondering why the hell you want me back in your life, after all I've done, last year. I don't know what you did, but I love you more, with each passing day, now. I can't promise forever. I can't predict the future, and besides, you know, I can't live forever. But all I can promise is to treat you better. I can't say much, cuz we're still young. Theres more to go through in life. No one, wants to get too tied down in a relationship unless they're married to each other. & I don't want to be too controlling, too cuz I'm sure you want freedom, like me. I love you, Adham.---------------------------------------------------
Sis, this is for you. You know who you are. I apologize for saying that to you. But, honestly, I think you changed. Don't you realize, we're drifting away? We didn't talk like how we used to. Okay, maybe chat. You're like, always busy with your stuffs now. Both of us are. But I don't want you to get to stressed up. & that's why I'm keeping it to myself. But I guess, keeping it to myself just makes it worst. You're already occupied with problems, which is building up. And I made it worst, by adding it. What the hell was I thinking? This is just not me. I supposed to give you my listening ear & shoulder to cry on. & cheer you up,too. ): I hate myself. I'm selfish. I never thought of your feelings. Oh god! D': I love you )':
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
They come & go, afterall
Friday, August 08, 2008
080808
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NALO!!
And i hope you'll obtain what you want & achieve your goals in life :)
meet up soon ey. haha.
So, erm. semoga murah rezeki & panjang umur :)
Thursday, August 07, 2008
I WANT MY 1 TUB OF BNJ, MAZREE! AND YOU CAN GET YOUR KFC TREAT. HAHA!
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
nothing much.
 Life's going pretty fine, now. Though, I have some amendments to do. But on top of it, life's going smoothly. Thanks to everyone who've been there for me throughout. You know who you are. :) I'm feeling restless these days. I don't know why, though. I keep on whining and sighing. I should listen to D's advice. :) And now, I'm gonna smile, no matter what. & stop thinking negatively and positively, instead. I'm gonna smile too, if I'm hurt inside. Cuz smiling helps more than frowning. And besides, frowning uses more muscles than smiling. Things to amend :
Learn to-
- love, not hate.
- Save, not waste.
- Manage time properly.
- Always ask, not wonder.
- Positive, not negative.
- Appreciate, not to deceive.
- Smile, not frown.
Monday, August 04, 2008
Today.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Leapord Sunday.
trust.freedom.
 Still awake, obviously. can't get myself to bed cuz I'm not sleepy yet. Hadn't a good day yesterday. Cuz I'm not allowed to go out with my friends. And mum was being really unreasonable. Had dinner with parents at PagiSore(located at Taman Jurong) instead. Then, head home. Life's been really mundane lately. Wonder when can I have my trust & freedom back. I hate being grounded, really. Cuz it feels like as if I'm living in a cage. & i hate that feeling.So, currently chatting and listening to radio. The temptation of buying The Sims 2 is coming back again. Damn it. 72 bucks! D: should i or should i not? I'm really bored now. Oh god. If only I'm able to go out. ): I'll probably sleep over my friend's house. Dear mum, Can i please have my freedom back? Just give me one last chance. )':Okay, enough. I sound so mushy. Aha. My stomach's beating the drums now. Calling my name & singing "I'm hungry!" woah. Okay, I know I have a strong imagination. Hah!
Saturday, August 02, 2008
uh.
Okay, so, I can't think of any good titles for now. 01aug'08Got my maths test back early in the morning. Scored 28/30. See? I can't score full marks cuz I'm a pro in making mistakes. :) So, after maths was english. Had debating lessons. Didn't get to be the speaker though cuz they thought I was too soft to be. Well, thats okay for me. After English was recess followed by two periods of Mt. After that, assembly. Assembly was rather boring. Topic's on cyber wealth. COME ON! give us a break! D: urgh. So, after assembly, went to change to PE attire for captain ball training. Cuz I didn't want to dissapoint her. But, I guess I did, cuz I can't play. My finger is still swollen ): Was a lil mad at myself though.I don't know why I always felt left out. )': Well, I guess its probably cuz I'm useless in everything?
Friday, August 01, 2008
Morning.
I find my parents irritating at times. D: Urgh. They always thought negatively about me. GREAT. What a GREAT start for this morning. Damn it.. Its not like as if I'm gonna skip school or what! Come on, I've changed! see, You guys don't even know bout your own daughter. You guys only heard/see the bad side of me. What do you guys even know??
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