well, don't expect me to write EVERYTHING i did for the 11 days at indonesia. Haha. I only go to Surabaya, Puncak, Bandong & Jakarta. Hmm. I got sick on 23rd dec. Vomitted. High fever and stomach ache.. D: Mum took care of me. teeeheee. okay. i think that's all i could remember. But overall, it was really FUN yet TIRING holiday. And i wana go back indonesia !! D: DUNKIN DONUTS, JCO, A&W..... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH !!!!
Saturday, December 29, 2007
i'm back to singapore, btw. YAY ! well, i'm lazy to type my granmother stories now... but all i want to say is that i'm HAPPY :D indonesia was GREAT ! Especially Ancol, Jakarta. WOAH ! and i swear there's a LOT of cute guys around. omg. they make me go ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I'm still in a holiday mood, now. School starts next week D: tsk tsk. soooo lazy, now........ ): i have to go SHOPPING !!! kak dhit !!!! haha. new school bag & shoes please.... have to dye my hair black, too. -.- ahh ! alot of things to do now. i wanna go back indonesia please !!!! yay ! going out with kak dhit, her future boyf n his friend this sunday.. which is tomorrow !! can't wait ! :) andddddd countdown at vivo will be dha bomb !!! especially with him... :D (you-know-who) teeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
okay. 2 vids i took at Ancol. They call it Capoera, i thhink. freestyles and stuff. from brazil. & i swear, they are sooo HOT AND COOL :D
Friday, December 14, 2007
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
okay, maybe he's not the right one for me. oh, i dont know D:
Awake, already. Going out later to take my new laptop. Oh ! i can't wait ! Then, maybe i can go shopping for awhile. I need to get something for 16th dec. damn it.
Oh yes people, please come and support my friend :D I'm not sure what time, though -.- But it's in the morning.
I'm so bored D: sheesh. I haven't bathe yet. oh well, my mum just asked me to bathe. gaah. okay, end here.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
I'm still up, now. I can't sleep. *sigh* I'm used to it already. Sleeping in the afternoon and awake at night till morning. D: THESE EYEBAGS ARE GROWING. tsk tsk.
OMG ! MCR are performing today ): Gossssh. damn it. I didn't get to see them.
Oh, and 5 more days will be maz's dance competition. GOOD LUCK EY ! :)
Damn ! He's haunting me... ): i really miss him terribly. Seriously, am i REALLY in love or is it just a crush ? damn.
Poor mum. She's sick. *sigh* well, i hope she'll get well soon because we're going to indonesia in 6 days time.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
It's impossible that i fall in love again. No, maybe it's just a crush ? But why can't i get him outta my head ? Life is getting complicated and boring. I really miss him. I just don't know why. Just maybe, maybe i should open my heart to him and give him a chance ? oh, i don't know. I'm just scared that he'll treat me like how that bastard treat me. But, not all guys are the same though.
Seriously, i feel lonely without his text messages and all. I don't know why ! ): Yes indeed F, it's lovely to be in love & feeling weird at the same time. *sigh* Of all guys, why him ? ALL BECAUSE OF YOU, I DON'T DARE TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN. Dilemma Dilemma Dilemma. *big sigh* F, you're so right. Maybe i should get to know him first and don't rush things, yeah ? :)
I hope things will go smoothly, for now.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
I'm trying my very best to move on, already. Yes, everyone is right. He's not worth my love. What goes around comes around. Yes, i do believe in karma. & i hope it will teach him a lesson. Oh, but i know he's the once-bitten-NEVER-shy type of guy. How i wish i could knock some sense to him..
Hell yeah, I'm stronger now. I decided to enjoy life and study hard for my future. Yes mum, i guess you're right. Relationships can wait. It only gives me pressure. Seriously. I had enough of guys breaking up my heart and treating me like dolls. hey, i have feelings alright. Though being single is lonely. But hey, i can go out and date with guys. Like i said, enjoy life. But of course, enjoying has its limits. Don't expect me to date and then go inside a room with him. ha ha. I'm not cheap. :)
Well well, look who's talking. I didn't even know that I'm this strong. I always thought of giving up. But hey, it's never the end of the world. He's just not the right one for me. That's all. It's fate. Though, i hate what he did to me. If only each and everyone have a pure heart and mind, this world would be peaceful and lovely to live in.
IF ONLY PEOPLE WOULD SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ANYONE.I'd say, never think of committing suicide. Because there's much more wonderful things out there awaits you. :) seriously. Think twice before making up your mind. Oh well, now I'm talking like a councilor. LOL. But seriously, I'm talking sense here. If you think carefully, you'll know that I'm right.
NOW SEE WHO'S MORE MATURED-THINKING, DIN. You said I'm immature. But now, look at the mirror. Ha ha.*puts the wide evil smile*
and till you know that no other females ( other than your family ) will love you like I do. You're making a huge mistake.
Accompanied Aman to polyclinic yesterday. He was sick. So, i decided to accompany him. After that, went to Lot 1 to have lunch. I only had few bites of the carrotcake. He says that i never ate anything but just re-arranged the food. I just don't have the appetite. After that, walked around the shopping center. Talked & laugh like as if we knew for years, already. After that, we went our separate ways. he took LRT home. I took MRT to Yew Tee to meet Matt, a good friend of mine. Slacked for a while. Just for few hours or minutes only. Reached home at around 7.10pm.
Me and matt
Saturday, December 01, 2007
I still can't believe he left me like that and acted like nothing happened. If only he love me like how i love him.. In that way, at least, he could feel how hurt i am. and i thought i'm gonna be with him like, forever. well, it's fate anyway. His feeling have fade for me. But i'd really appreciate it if he told me earlier. And i had to change the events and calenders because there's no more anniversaries. *sigh*
Just by a glance of his picture, my tears begin to roll down, already. i don't even think i can hold this any longer. how i wish i never met him. Then i wouldn't have be in this fucked up situation. What have i not done for him ? i always gave in to him and said sorry though it wasn't even MY fault. Well, maybe not always. He only gave in just 1 or 2 times. and that's it.
dear Fadiana darling, well, i have to say that what you posted was true. *big sigh* but it's just hard to move on. Well, guys do get bored easily.. That's for sure. I mean, seriously. and i'm feeling lonely, now.
darling, i don't even know why i'm being so emotional for a guy like this but all i knew was that i really love him. It's just that he had changed, already. ):
And thank you for being there for me. :] i really appreciate it. I mean, i really2 do. Thank you for waking me up.
well, i don't really know how to show my appreciation. But i really2 mean it. Thanks for being a great friend for me. :) and i hope that we'll be friends forever. *hugs*
yes, my exboyfriend now. i miss him. )': oh well, this is what you wanted. i can't do anything. but i hope that this is not your real decision. i really love you. i can't sleep. been tossing and turning thinking bout you. it hurts alot, i swear. and i've been crying all night.
30th september 2007, 5:27pm till 1st december 2007, 1.57am.
