DREAM.

gaah. im just fucken lazy to update. my life is getting more boring. im sick and tired of it. ):
i need to party, somehow.
and my dad says im getting thinner. wtf.

boyfriend, oh boyfriend. where are you ? )':
i'm feeling knackered.
eyebags, sore eyes and messy hair. it just doesn't sound like me. I've changed a lot since the incident. oh, hell. been crying every night...

I need a break. SERIOUSLY. but im not gonna give up on him. i love him, deeply. i swear i do.

okay, whatever. the training SUCKS ! no food, no break. wtf. i have to stand up and walk around the entire 4 hours. ):

oh, and thanks eh Matt for introducing me to Bob X)
lol. well, Bob is my new friend. haa. he's friendly, i tell you.
okay. on the left is Matt. And on the right is Bob ;D

Fadiana darling, thanks for being there when i needed someone to talk to. I really appreciate it. But i'm sorry if i'm not there for you. I'm so selfish. ): i only cared bout myself. let's go out together, soon okay. (f)

to Peihui : i'm sorry i've changed a lot.. i just don't know what have gotten into me. i read your blog.. and i really regret what i've done. oh, it was just a stupid mistake. why won't you all forgive me ? i mean, if god can forgive us for our sins, why cant human forgive each other ? people makes mistake. no one is perfect. and when people are not in the mood, they won't know what they did was wrong. )': i really miss those moments when we laughed and talked to each other. seriously.

to Mira : i'm really sorry for what i did. come on girlfriend, people makes mistakes. am i right ? hais. i really miss you (w)

to boyfriend:
i miss you. i really2 need you. where are you when i needed you the most ? i miss talking to you on the phone. i miss those hugs and kisses. i miss staring into your eyes. i miss saying i love you to you. )': i really2 love you. I swear i do.. but do you ?

to all the people who've been telling me to let go of him, go put yourself to my shoes,then. it's my life. i choose my decision. not you. cheers.