oooh. forget about the post yesterday, please. I think i was being childish.
okay. whatever. I THINK WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY TOOOOO MUCH. i just can't help it. He's just don't seem to be like last time. 4 days not meeting him feels like we've never met before.. and what's more.. Hari raya coming. I don't think i'll be as fucking happy as last years. He's always busy with his work. and he worked just to get that blllooooooddddddyyyyy psp. i wish psp never exist in the world before ):
uhhhhhh. okay... today was maths paper 1. it was okay, i guess. quite easy. BUT i couldn't figure out the last question and the question before the last question. darn ! i hope i pass though. didn't study. NO MOOD. oh, hell. please burn me now.
damn. now i'm talking shit here ! uh. okay. my posts are getting way too boring. that means, MY LIFE GETTING DULL TO THE X-CORE ! oh, fuck. no more party cuz i have to study and think about my n levels. i neeeed a bloooody fucking tuition please ! shit. where can i find it ? ):
i wanna improve in my studies and get effing great marks ! oh shit. help me, someone ? ahhh. now i'm talking like an attention seeker ! hahaha. asshole.
gaaah. so, after maths, sat with my clique and revised geography for tomorrow. but i didn't. i just sat there and listened to my music. went to jurong east around 11am. then, go to bt batok to meet kak yati. followed her to her mum's place and ate at mac XD
after that, went to clementi. uh, it was raining heavily. she sent me to the bus stop and she went to school for her EOA exam.
so, now.. i'm at home. damn. boyfriend must be sleeping cuz he didnt reply my msges. OR IS HE IGNORING ME ? uh, no ! nononononononono ! i have to think positive.
ahhh ! yesterday night, boyfriend called me and he asked me to call back. yay ! hahaha. i was freaking happy. but wtf. he asked me to open avenged sevenfold-you won't see me tonight. the song was like 8 fucking minutes sialllllll.. then when i talked, he say "u ! jgn bbl dulu.. i nak dgr lagu !". omg. ): so, i chat on msn. well, i have to admit that im freaking sensitive okay ! sheeesh. then, after the song ends, he says he wanna go home and sleep. like, wtf ? hais. nvm. atleast i get to listen to his voice. that means alot to me already. i really want to express my feelings towards him.. but i just don't know how to say it out.. i really love him.. and he means the world to me. i swear ):
a song for someone special whom i knew for two whole years. (he's no longer someone special to me. because i've thrown his love away. yes. regretted. but this song really2 suits the atmosphere & our story)
