okay. it's been like, 4 days since i've posted ? omg. Been busy lately. 03102007i didn't meet him. he was sick. fever and all. ): went out with my family to IMM. err, i was damn worried with boyfriend. And i was crying. 04102007Met boyfriend after school. i love him, deeply.05102007history exam. FUCK ! i did the mcq.but i didn't do the rest. i slept. :D i hate history. So, after the fucking exam, i went home. changed and went to meet kak dhit at causeway. She brought her friend, waney. & she was cool ! ate at Banquet. & off to the library. a girl : hello. errr, alamak. lupa ah nak cakap ape. ah ! my friend, yang pakai baju merah nak kenal2. can ? u got friendster right ? yang mate ade darah2 or something like that eh ? Me : uh, yeah :DDhit : ask ur friend come here ah.Before he even came, we walked away XD Dhit's boyfriend called and she asked us to find him at the void deck opposite her school. um, so, i followed her. went home around 6:30pm. reached around 7:10pm ?
okay. so, after i came home, we went out again. to Jurong Point. YAY ! my mum bought me an AUTHENTIC LEVIS BLACK SKINNY JEANS which caused $130+ LAH ! XD & i went for FULL SET PEDICURE LAH ! $30 :D see how pampered i am ? damn, i'm spoilt by my parents ! oh ! i love my mum !
06102007
FUCK ! I MISS MY BOYFRIEND ! AH ! )':
okay, i cried alot today. i just miss him...... woke up like, around 2+pm. i cried & cried. then, around 3pm, i bathed. my eyes were swollen. paint my room. msged him. no reply. (his prepaid low). FUCK MAN ):
Then, suddenly, around 3:29pm, he msged me. "hi'!U tgh uat pe?" uh, i think he sent it to wrong person or something. i don't know ! okay. i replied, acting like i don't know anything. but he didnt replied. my sister came home. msged him again to see if he wants me to call. but still, no reply :(
okay. 11:49, he msged "u,i skr ngan my kwn keje nk tgk wayang tau kat ps". like, omg. ): he acts as if he never see my previous msg ! ): he became someone whom i don't know already. ): AH ! i'm in dilemma now....... im crying again. hais.. I wonder if he really2 love me or just treat me like a doll to play with so he could forget his exgirlfriends. but he seem so good to me. i love him deeply. i just don't want to lose him. but if he wants to be with me just to use me, then, i'll back out. i just can't hold the pressure. i just want his true love. that's all i ever wanted.
i want clarifications from him ! but i don't know how to ask him.
look, i never felt this way before. this love is really2 deep. i THRUST all my love towards him.
i don't want to be treated like a piece of junk anymore.
to boyfriend :
I'm sorry if what i think about you is wrong. but i just don't understand. are u avoiding me ? you know, i really2 love you. :'( i cried alot this few days. i miss you badly now. eventhough we did not meet for just two days. but to me, two days is like 2 years. i guess u're having fun now. watching movie with ur friends. In case u don't know, i'm at home, crying. i don't want to lose you. I want your true love. can ? well, i understand that your prepaid is low lah. but u could miss call me so i could call you back what. hais.. and you worked so hard just to get a psp. ): honestly, i don't like it. Because u don't even bother about your health. & u continued to work, ignoring your sickness. i'm glad you're okay now. i won't sleep till you call me. Let's make it more challenging. how bout " I WON'T EAT TILL YOU CALL ?" yeah. i'm crazy. i'm crazy over you. by the time u called, i think i'll have fucking big eyebags & i'm only left with bones. :)
I SWEAR UPON MY HEART THAT MY LOVE FOR YOU IS UNDYING.
