30 september 2007. 5:27pm the best day ever in my whole life. yes, i'm attached to the most perfect guy i ever met, SAIFUDDIN. :D i'm happy. & yeah. i'm proud to call him my guy. i even left the guys whom loved/like me/i like. I'm owned ! i love him. i've thought it through and i want to live a life with him. he meant everything to me. he's my life, my angel & my true love. There's alot of reason why i love him. but i'll just keep that to myself. Eg. if i love him cuz he's caring & suddenly, he got into an accident and had comma, he couldn't care about me. & so, i rather not say it. but i love him for who he is. It's fated. I'm stronger now cuz i've learnt to follow my heart instead of being soft & all. went out with my love just now. met him at the bukit panjang bus interchange. he brought 5 of his friends along. i was effing late okay. & coincidentally, i bumped to simon. my exschoolmate. Took bus 700 to town. yeah ! i had to wear my school uniform cuz im lazy to go home & change. walked around far east. Then, we planned to break fast together. i actually thought of meeting my cousin at woodlands. but cancelled the plan due to certain reasons. I didn't want to eat actually. but my boyf bought food for me. omg. it's the first time a guy teat me that much okay. im happy. but i didnt eat cuz i wasnt hungry. and i felt sorry cuz my boyf wasted his money. ): i'm sorry boyfriend. i love you. After that, he sent me home. took 143. the journey was like, 1 hour + ! omg. but the ride was okay cuz i was sitting beside him. He hugged me. And i was smiling away ! he hold my hand and i gripped tightly, not wanting to let go. & he kissed me. awwwwww.

boyfriend, i really love you. i don't want to let go. i never felt this way before. this love is deep. please hold me tight and don't let me go. i'll be true to u. and hope u will too.

i broke two hearts today ):