Y must he do this to me ? I've waited for himfor 64 days and im not gonna waste that .. i appreciate everything he done to me .. eventhough it hurts... i just take in ... i 4give every mistakes he made to me ... but i cant forget what he had done . I pray to Allah that im only his ... I gave him all his privacy but this is how he repay me ? The cause of pain he've done is 10% less then how much i love him . And i love him till infinity. And all the pain i've took in .... Cause a scar on my heart . A scar that would ever be healed. He've caused me misery and pain BUT i'm not going to stop loving him. My love for him will bloom and grow as days passes by.. Same goes to the hurt and the misery he've caused . Im crazy over him . Every night i've cried myself to sleep ... I beared the pain he've caused . I tried not to tell him because i'm afraid of loosing him again... the tears i've cried will only be for him . A million words can't describe my feelings towards him . I really2 LOVE him and i mean it. Though sometimes i say i do hate him, i never did . I could forgive anything but could not forget . My heart is HIS toy for him to play with and break it . I gave my heart to him. My love for him is bigger than anything. bigger that the world .. And even bigger then the whole universe. BUT . it ain't bigger then ALLAH. I've tried my very best to stick to him. But i guess he did not. Maybe it would be better if i just die. So he could get MAS and don't have to pity me. Im always happy if he's happy. I've tried my VERY best to make him smile. And laugh. But my smile and laugh will never be real . Ashraf... i just want to tell you how much i love you .. But i can't because i don't want you to think too much.
