DREAM.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Y must he do this to me ? I've waited for himfor 64 days and im not gonna waste that .. i appreciate everything he done to me .. eventhough it hurts... i just take in ... i 4give every mistakes he made to me ... but i cant forget what he had done . I pray to Allah that im only his ... I gave him all his privacy but this is how he repay me ? The cause of pain he've done is 10% less then how much i love him . And i love him till infinity. And all the pain i've took in .... Cause a scar on my heart . A scar that would ever be healed. He've caused me misery and pain BUT i'm not going to stop loving him. My love for him will bloom and grow as days passes by.. Same goes to the hurt and the misery he've caused . Im crazy over him . Every night i've cried myself to sleep ... I beared the pain he've caused . I tried not to tell him because i'm afraid of loosing him again... the tears i've cried will only be for him . A million words can't describe my feelings towards him . I really2 LOVE him and i mean it. Though sometimes i say i do hate him, i never did . I could forgive anything but could not forget . My heart is HIS toy for him to play with and break it . I gave my heart to him. My love for him is bigger than anything. bigger that the world .. And even bigger then the whole universe. BUT . it ain't bigger then ALLAH. I've tried my very best to stick to him. But i guess he did not. Maybe it would be better if i just die. So he could get MAS and don't have to pity me. Im always happy if he's happy. I've tried my VERY best to make him smile. And laugh. But my smile and laugh will never be real . Ashraf... i just want to tell you how much i love you .. But i can't because i don't want you to think too much.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

New jacket<3 $63+ @ bugis junction

Merry x'mas babes and hunks.

CAN?

New school shoes<3 $89.90 @ converse store @ bugis junction.

OMG, you give love a BAD name darling.

New superman t shirt<3

Can you make my smile come back ?

I LOVE YOU. isit so hard to understand ?

I LOVE ASHRAF.

~CONFESSIONS~

I love you Ashraf. I've gave you my love,my soul,my heart,my life, my EVERYTHING. You are my only one. You mean all the world to me. Everytime i close my eyes, it's you i see. My love for you grows as days passes by. I hold you close to my heart. I've done my VERY best to mend your heart. You might have hurt me lots of times but i dared not say i because im too afraid of losin you. No person is as perfect as you. I promise i will love you till eternity. My love for you will NEVER drop. If one day you happen to leave me again, I'll be right here waiting for you. Even if it does takes years. I'll wait for you till i get you back. I'll sacrifice just anything to pull you closer to me. No souls can stop me from loving you. I till could remember the first time i set eyes on you. I began to like you. Then we started talking to each other. I began to have a crush on you. Then, we started hanging out together. After a few days, my boyfriend left me and throw harsh words to me. You are the one who console me. You are the only one who stopped me from commiting suicide. You are the one who send me home because you were afraid that i would commit . You are the one who wake me up and open up my heart . There, i LOVE you till now and forever.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

You might be wondering why i post 3 times in a day . maybe i'll post again tonight . The reason i post alot is because i was bored . YES . I LOVE FATIN<3 Pretty her . sweet her . gorgeous her . Well, i met a new friend the last 2 days . HE ROCK MY WORLD(: he makes me laugh all day long . Haha .. well, Ashraf didn't contac me yesterday . i MISS him ......... OMG. i didnt sleep the whole day AGAIN. darn it . Later i'm going out . STUPID ME . i can't even sleep ............... *SIGH* Im sick NO MORE(: And yeah . I'll be updating the column of for the people whom i HEART(: I JUST LOVE THEM.

HOT TOPIC: MICHAEL JACKSON CONVERT TO ISLAM(:

Well, dia sudah bertaubat....Bila kita nak bertaubat ye ? Sampai dunia kiamat ke ? *i'm changing for the good now.

I'm going to town later with my family. Can't wait . I will continue later. Goodbye for now. I <33

I LOVE MY NEW FRIEND<33

Monday, December 18, 2006

Friday, December 15, 2006

OMG . something really touched my heart .... I would like to dedicate this to my DEAREST sis, KAK ELFA. MUARCKX~ love you kak . HAPPY BIRTHDAY.May all your wishes come true . Take care always. I LOVE YOU.

Its 5:40am now .. can't sleep . SO DAMN BORED . My darling called me just now. WOW . He's really mad because i didn't call him or msg him this 2 days. Actually, i purposely did that because: 1 : He's working, and he needs rest 2 : He say hewould call me up the last 2 days 3 : I want to test him if he really2 love him AND HE DID CARE OMG . i so LOVE him . Gosh ... im really bored now ... i cant sleep ... My mum is now at the bathroom, bathing . She needs to go to work later . And my dad too. DAMN . i will be ALONE again .. *sigh* Can you accompany me ? -oh please do.. Now, im just listening to the radio . Don & Drew-Be My Valentine . LOLS . Nice song ~ Faris(my beloved ex) didn't accompany throughout the day .. =/ he slept half way through .. LOLS. i'm so damn BORED . hais ... sweetfriend don't seem that sweet after all . I've read this bulletin .. and it seems TRUE .

1. Guys hate sluts even though
they have s-e-x with them! (oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 5 guys..you're a H-O-E)

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. 6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then- have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. Its good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy does you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been- busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and b-o-o-b-s, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more tothem.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51. Not all guys are assh*les. Just because ONE is a jack*ss doesn’t mean he represents ALL of us.

52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53. We love it when girls talk about their b00bs.

54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like whether it's a one time deal or not ....

55. Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unnoticeable tell them about yours...

56. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

57. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

58. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..It means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

59. Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

60. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

I miss you lah sayang .. He's working again ..... Hope to meet him soon . OMG . i have a HEADACHE . it hurts so much . can someone help me ? *SIGH* My bro helped me out with my blog . How nice of him . *aaw*

I'M SO BORED ~

Gosh ... i keep listening to 3 doors down-Here without you .. Then, everytime i hear it, tears start forming .

Oh my dearest Ashraf .... Where are you ? what are you doing now? How are you ? ..
Have you eaten ?

DAMN . the headache is GROWING . no panadols for me ..

End here ~

3 DOORS DOWN-HERE WITHOUT YOU

Monday, December 11, 2006

New Found Glory-Boulders

Saturday, December 09, 2006

I was Impressed By this girl . She played the guitar well and sang well too . And she's only 14 ! WOW ! I'll display her video below .

Well, today, My boo went to escape theme pasrk with his friends . That's SO cool ...Wish i could go with him ... But then .. I will be so left out later . And I don't want to disturb him with his friend . Eventhough i'm is girl . BUT that doesn't mean i didn't love him . i LOVE him more then anything .

I MISS HIM . When can we meet again ? How's he ? Have he eaten ? Is he okay ?

Well, What's wrong with FRIENDSTER ? it SUCK. ARGH ! Hmms .. Strumming my guitar now . so BORED .

Well, my sweetfriend went out . And he's changing . Last time, he ALWAYS chat with me .. But now, he's even LAZY to chat . Did he replace me with a new friend ? Hmmmms .. PEOPLE CHANGE

I'm so SICK . Running nose . HIGH fever . Sore throat . Headache . I didn't tell him that i'm SO sick now because i don't want to disturb him ... I don't want him to care SO much bout me . It's okay .

I NEVER forget about him . Well, i HOPE that he WON'T too . I just want to be with him FOREVER

PLEASE FORGIVE ME, BECAUSE I CAN'T STOP LOVING YOU .

I'm displaying 2 Videos ; The Girl whom i mentioned just now and Ally & Aj-Rush .

EVERYWHERE COVER

ALLY & AJ - RUSH

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Its 5.26 now .. i JUST came home .. I miss him now ..... And now, I'm just Lazing around, listening to Perfect 10 and Chatting . BOREDNESS STRIKES !!
KANYE WEST JAMIE FOXX-GOLD DIGGER . LAME SONG . Hais .. I've watched HAPPY THREE FRIENDS on youtube . so damn IRRITATING .

HAPPY THREE FRIENDS

Its 6:36am now ... I'm meeting My Baby Boi Later . Can't wait . Hehe . Miss him . Hais . When can i get well ???? My Rubbish bin in my room is full with tissues .

OMG !! BOREDNESS STRIKES . I'm out of things to do right NOW . hais .. Im listening to perfect 10 now ... i LOVE muttons . Now, they are playing THAT GIRL-FRANKIE J MANNIE FRESH . nice song .

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

TODAY WAS BORING .
Didnt go out .
and i got more sicker .
it SUCK .

GOODBYE;

Monday, December 04, 2006

i got my new HAIRCUT .
Went out with my SAYANG just now .
I LOVE HIM .
I MISS HIM .

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