Bought a NEW guitar (: Black colour . My new husband(:
22112006 - 26112006 27112006 I went out with him (:
28102006 Stay at home ....... strumming the guitar all day long &&Playing the com . Borednes strikes . I don't even know what to do . Well, Yesterday was our 1mth annivessary.((:
Got to go now . I want to STRUM MY GUITAR((:
GOODBYE ;
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Hais .. Semua tak jadi . The plans for today are cancel. He have to go to work . Nevermind . I miss him so much !! I'm sick now. Hais .. I love him so much !!!!!! Not a single word can describe my love to him . I gave him ALL my heart . Can he return it unshattered ? I know he can . He showed his love to me . I appreciate it lots .. Thanks dear . You are the only one whom can make me smile . I just hope that we could be FOREVER . I want you and only you, ASHRAF .
You’re the thought that starts each morning, The conclusion to each day. You are in all that I do, And everything I say.
You’re the smile on my face, The twinkle in my eye. The warmth inside my heart, The fullness in my life.
You’re the hand that’s laced in mine, And the coat upon my back. My friend, my love, My shoulder to lean on.
You’re my silly, mature, caring, Thoughtful, bright, and honest guy. The one who holds me tightly, When I need to cry.
You’re the dimple in my cheek, The ever-constant tingle in my soul. The voice that makes me weak, The happiness of my life.
You are all I’ve wanted, You are all I need. You are all I’ve dreamed of, You are all of this to me.
And this friend of mine is like, ignoring me .. nevermind .
BOREDNESS STRIKES ME .
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Nothing special happened to me yesterday .Hais . BORING day ever. I had it with my BORING and HURTFULL life . Feel like dying now . BUT not now because i want to spend time with my dearest dear . LIFE SUX TO THE CORE . i need a shoulder to lie on ... did he ever give me ? LAST TIME . he changed ........ i want the old him . hais .. Can i ever get the old him ? i really2 wished so . hais ..
Taufik and Hady's album came out already . Im looking foward to buy the CDs . I really2 into them . Their voice are BEAUTIFUL . If only they are my brothers . DREAM ON LAH REENA . hais .
Next year, (after my birthday ofcourse) i've planned to work at West Mall with my darl and bestie . Can't wait . Im really2 looking foward to that .
I'm meeting him tomorrow . (FINALLY; A HAPPY MOMENT) .
Your smile makes a difference. You reflect my dreams. Nothing ever matters; When you're with me. Your suprises never fail me. You're my need. You're __________ reveals. The love i have in me. I crave for your presence. I yearn to hear you. i understand more; BECAUSE OF YOU . You're a natural. All is possible. Everything seems right. It's so surreal. There is no pretend. Nothing can compare. To the moments we shared. You're a perfect joy. A splendid sight . Like a stained glass. Sparkles from inside. Unconditional. Love and honesty. It's all because of you.
I LOVE YOU TAUFIK !!
Friday, November 17, 2006
sorry i didnt update for quite a long time . My bro just came home . He bring the laptop with him . Hmm . Life is burrying me . hais . I MISS HIM ! He's working now . GOSH ! His hugs are so warm and his kiss is so gentle .. He's irriplaceable . Not a single guy can replace him . i just hope his love to me is true too . He changed so much . Its just wierd .. He suddenly show me his love more than last time .
Hais .. Nowadays, i'm getting more sick . Hais .. I didn't tell him because i don't want him to be worried bout me . Okay . Till here darls .
Friday, November 10, 2006
Today was the best day ever. I just wish that it could be forever .. hais .. his hugs was so irresistable . I've never felt as happy as this before eventhough it wasn't my birthday. I promised him to buy the psp on december.
Everything was going fine till he says that next year is going to be his last year of school . I wonder.... If he got scandal .... HOPE NOT !!
Hais ... I miss my sweet friend ! I hope he's doing fine... Where he go seh ... nvm . Hmm . well, im out of words. I shall end the story with videos((:
For my ex-mei
All I ever needed was to eat popcorn with you, Come on over, Watch the late show, Stay up talking until two
Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along
Everything sucks when you're gone, Everything sucks when you're gone
A dream of our reunion makes me crazy just to think, How so very far away you are, My hope begins to sink
Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along
Everything sucks when you're gone, Everything sucks when you're gone
It's not ok, I've baked dinner here for two, And it's not ok, I've got candles lit for you, And It's not ok, I've got you're favorite records out, And it's not ok, You should have let it be, And ran after me
Today's the day you're leaving, And tomorrow you'll be gone You're in my heart and on my mind, I will bring you along
Everything sucks when you're gone, (I want you! I need you!) Everything sucks when you're gone (I want you! I need you!) [x2]
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
OH NO !! Shit ...... 2 more days is his b'day .. i don't have enough money to buy for him the psp yet ..... &&i need to meet him at 9 am !! ARGH ! everything is in a mess .. i don't want to upset him .. but how ?? if only i can go back in time ..... shit3 !! then my sister ask me to go to her place and help her with her work .. i don't know ! Some more my sister is very FIERCE .. how ?? Darn it !
Hmms . Oh yeah . my 'new friend' is getting better each day .. well, he's ok after all . wee !~ Just hope that we could be best friend . Hmms .. i guess he's in the list of the people whom i heart . (:
To my most beloved ∧ only mei;
I'm sorry if i gave u the cold shoulders. I'm just not in the mood . Im such a spoiler . I begin to hate my life . Hais .. Im so sorry .. I have mood swings lately ... Its ok if u don't forgive me . Because i know, my sins can't be forgiven . I think im not fit to be ur jie . I didnt give u the love like how i used to like last time ..... I'm not me . I think i've changed .. Hais .. im so sorry .. I hope that u will find a sis that's better than me . Im awful . Im bad . I sux .. hais .. I don't seem to have the courage to say sorry to u .. so, i rather write u a letter in here . well, i think i should end here. Your name will never be revealed. Thanks for being there mei. I love u forever .
Well, I would like to end my day with this video . hope u like it .
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
You're still confused on why you stay, Knowing that your life could end at any moment. The danger you're in, from just being with me, excites you in a way you never knew existed.
What you don't realize is that I know what you are feeling; you generally love me for the person I am. What you don't know is that I am not a person at all, but a creature of the night, a creature that could kill you at any moment.
And yet I let you stay, knowing what I could do, I fear that I might have feelings for you. They grow with each passing moment of time we spend together, but I could never let it go too far, for you would never come back.
So as I watch you, and see your love grow for me, I know that soon you will be gone forever. And somehow you know this too, but you're not afraid you're numbed by your lust for me.
As I watch you die, knowing I could have stopped it, I tell myself that you meant nothing, but we both know that's not true, I truly loved you and look at what I did to you.
A new friend ?? Pathetic . Pathetic . Pathetic !! ii suddenly hate him .. Kay .. whatever . SHIT ! His birthday coming ... i had promised that i'll buy him PSP &&shirt .. but i havent bought it yet .. My mum took my Money ... How am i goin to buy it now ?? Life sux !! Well, a poem to end today's day .
I've met a new friend, A friend whom i thought i'd be happy with. But i was wrong. He's just a normal friend i guess.Maybe its jelousy i felt, As love is blind.
I started to hate everyone, Including myself. Am ii in a dilema? maybe ii am always.
Ii had it with life, As life sux to the core. Nothing came out as ii expected, Because ii spoil every single moment.
Why bother iif my life'sgona end? Maybe ii still have certain things to do in life. Should ii end my life ? or just being tortured iin real world ?
A girl who's just waiting for death, Just like HEART. A little secret which i no one knows . I should not reveal it . My life is shortening,&&let god take my lfe.
Before ii realese my last breathe, ii just want to let him know that i love him. That's all , ii guess . it sux to be me.
Monday, November 06, 2006 a 'new' friend
I've met a 'new' friend.. well, he's one of my schoolmate . He's cool &&Sweethearted . He never run out of sweet wors to say . Well, sometimes, he can make u laugh out ur heart &&sometimes , u'll get agitated with him .. well, overall, he's ok . I admire his behavior .. He's the guy who will laugh with u ; not at u . He's the guy i can trust . People are lucky to have a friend like him because a friend like him ishard to find &&that's why i'll treasure &&cherish a frind like him . (:
As days pass by, My sayang suddenly change ... i guess he knows my secret . A secret which i don't have to reveal(: . i wrote a poem for him . Well, here goes .. hmms .. It will not be that perfect coz im not that good at writing poems ..
My love, u r e only one, e only one my heart desires. U r e love of my life; My Bloody Valentine.
I'll always cherish u, like no one else would. Every single day, U'll make me fall deeper; deeper than e blue ocean.
25august2006, u left me.. Saying u love me, && u don't wish to hurt me. But u never did, till that day comes.
I tot my life has come to e end, Because u r gone. But instead, I closed my heart; so nobody could take me away. I've promised; promised to wait for u; My dear .
As days pass by, i begin to feel.... feel that u'll never come back. Bu i dared; dared to wait for u, ignoring what people says .
28september2006, 64 days of waiting, u came back. Tears were shed; Tears of joy that is .
But as minutes passes by, U stoped showering ur love to me animore. My heart sank. &&tears were shed everyday. every night ...
My love for u slowly fades. &&i begin to like ur friend. Suddenly, things change. u FINALLY start showing that u cared . &&my love from me to u increased. im deeply in love with u .(:
I'm so in love with this song !! well,i cried everytime i hear this song ... It makes me realise ALL the stupid mistakes i've made in my life .. &&i just want to be with him .. I will always love him &&never ever betray his love .. I just hope that he wont hurt me ... I just love him SO much .. ALLAH, please let me be with him . I want to change my behaviour .. Just 4 e sake of him whom i love so much ... Please, just let me be with him .. && i hope that people won''t intefere in OUR relationship .. Tanx Allah for meeting him to me .. He's the love of my life . No matter what, I will never leave him .
Friday, November 03, 2006
IM IN LOVE !!
Wednesday was FUN. Went out with 3/9 , 3/10 , 2/6 . Im the smallest . Matt, gothicWAWA, Haikal, Mona, Ezan, Faradillah, Hilmi, Taufik, Fairuz, Hadzran && many more .. hmms .. BUT ashraf wasn't there . I'm SO heartbroken . hais . I dare say none bcoz im scared dat he'll leave me . But if he oes, it just means that he don't love me . well, I don't wanna say more . It will just make me more broken hearted .
